So....yeah =0

Hello everyone =)

Well it's spring break and I'm almost done with my college undergraduate study...and have no idea what I'm going to be doing after graduation. However, a lot has happened to me since I last updated so I thought I should share lol

First, I got a scholarship from the Mitsubishi company, so I'm 5000 dollars richer...except I have so many student loans it really doesn't matter lol but this money can help me get off my feet and sustain me for a little bit until I get settled and can start paying some of my loans off

Then, I started dating this guy =) he's really nice, kind if dorky but he's cute so it's ok lol we've been going out for around 1~2 months now and I really enjoy hanging out with him =) even though he's a year younger than me ..and sometimes I can really feel the age difference because he acts just like my sister. Not concerned about his future, needs he's parents to give him incentive to think about his future and get stuff done....and to make it worst he used to use weed and was even selling it when I started seeing him. But I told him if he didn't stop we were over so he's being a good boy about that. I don't know, sometimes I just feel like 1990 kids are slackers lol or maybe it's just the 1990 kids I know. But yeah, I'm going out with him =) and he makes me happy so I guess that's all that matters. In time, if we're still together I guess we'll have to meet each others parents...and that should be interesting.

I still have a little bit of anxiety, but it's not as bad as it was in the summer, and I'm beginning to stop thinking that I have every disease in the world and acting like a hypochondriac....that might be thanks to the guy I'm seeing, he relaxes me sometimes and I feel like I can calm down a little. Not to say that it's entirely gone, just saying that it's getting better. Although, when I think about it, I feel like I was suppose to go through this turmoil in order to meet Will. Now that I think about it, I really do think that because without me going crazy and freaking out during the summer I would have never went to my therapist, I would have never went on that online dating site, I would have never tried to meet new people and I would have never met Will. So in some ways I guess I'm thankful if that makes any sense. I just hope I get fully recovered so I can take something good away from this whole experience.

During spring break I'm going with my mom and mama to get a second ear piercing. I'm kind of excited but then I'm kind of scared because I hate needles but I've been thinking about getting a second ear piercing for awhile now and from my mom's crazy mid life crisis part II phase, I've decided to try and get it done with her lol and now mama's decided to do it too so it's like a whole family thing. After I get it done, I want to get some butterfly studs...like the one's I lost after practicing in the marching band when I was in high school (that's part of the reason why I quit lol because I don't like physical labor and I lost my favorite pair of earrings doing this labor I wasn't even motivated to do) but yeah, hopefully that goes well

That's pretty much everything for now, all the big things anyway....so I guess I'll end here for now