「ただいま」juju

So it's been a week since I've graduated from school and needless to say after  e-mailing countless people about jobs and freelance work, it's pretty slow around the house. So....after watching in Japanese drama called "Mou ichi do kimi ni propose" (which translates to "Proposing to you one more time") I decided to translate the main song for it, "Tadaima" by juju. It's a nice song and I like it but to tell you the truth translating songs are so hard! Especially songs that haven't even been transcribed and written down in the native language. I tried to look everywhere for the original Japanese lyrics but I couldn't find it anywhere!! So that just left me with trying to write down the Japanese lyrics myself. I don't know how many times I listened to the song to write down what she was saying lol but in the end I finished lol It's funny though because when I asked my friend to check over the lyrics and see if they were correct, lol there was one line that I thought I heard as 「夫婦知れば」but what my friend said and what she was actually saying is 「目を閉じれば」yes, yes I know Asheli is a complete baka LOL you don't know how many times I've laughed at myself because of it! But anyway, here's the song (and here's a link to the song if you want to listen to it:

http://www.dailymotion.com/video/xqapj6_music  =)

 

-First Verse-

過ぎてゆく毎日に大事なもの忘れそうで       As every day passes by I seem to forget the important things

町の中ふと一人立ち止まる                        I suddenly stand still in the middle of town

愛してる?                                       Do you love me?

そんなこと今更ね 聞けないけど               I can't ask those types of things these days

不器用な　笑顔が愛おしい                     Your awkward, clumsy smile is lovely

かかえきれなくて 壊れそうな心まで           The seemingly broken heart we shared but couldn't hold on to 

当たり前に分け合えてた                         I naturally was able to share it with you 

いつの間に                                       Before I knew it

目を閉じれば　聞こえてくる                     When wrapped in your nostalgic gentleness

あなたの声が呼んでる                                     If I close my eyes I hear

懐かしい優しさに包まれたら                        your voice is calling me   

見つめ合うより もう同じ明日を見ているから        Instead of looking at each other, let's look toward tomorrow because

二人で歩く道にもう迷わないよ             When we walk together, I no longer lose my way

-Second Verse-

好きな色好きな空                                                Your favorite color, the sky you like

泣いていた 映画のシーン                          The movie scene you cried to

何一つ覚えててくれないけど                       you don't remember not one of them

過ぎた悲しみもそっと埋めてくれてたね              You even burried my overwhelming sadness 

今分かったあなたがいた                         　　I realize now that

すぐそばに                                     you are always close to me 

恋が愛に　変わってゆく 思いを重ねるたびに                  With each thought of passion gradually turning into love 

穏やかな時により添える場所へ　                  Tranquil times add to the place where 

見つめ合うより横顔がこんなにも切なくて    Your profile shot is much more heart wrenching than looking at each other

ときめくよりも深い愛、気づいたから                             Because I realized, love is deeper than fleeting passion 

-Break-

零れてゆく時間はもう追いかけない           No longer can I chase after time as it gradually overflows

大切に大切に 月日をたどって                                                                The precious days and months to follow  

-Third Verse-

目を閉じれば　聞こえてくる                       When I close my eyes I hear

あなたの声が呼んでる                              Your voice is calling me

探してた　愛はここにあるんだと                                                       I've searched for it, if love is right here

いくつ季節を重ねても                                               Then no matter how many seasons pass by 

色あせない ぬくもり                        I will never forget your gentleness and warmth 

あなたの声のする場所へ今帰るよ                I'm going home to where your voice is

ただいまと伝えたくて                            and I want to say "I'm home"

PLEASE DON"T TAKE ENGLISH LYRICS WITHOUT MY PERMISSION AND CREDIT. THESE ARE COPYRIGHTED THANK YOU

INFJ?!

So, my boyfriend tells me to take this personality quiz and I get the result that I'm an INFJ. After looking it up...yeah the test was right. Here's the definition:

INFJ: Portrait of an INFJ - Introverted iNtuitive Feeling Judging

As an INFJ, your primary mode of living is focused internally, where you take things in primarily via intuition. Your secondary mode is external, where you deal with things according to how you feel about them, or how they fit with your personal value system.
INFJs are gentle, caring, complex and highly intuitive individuals. Artistic and creative, they live in a world of hidden meanings and possibilities. Only one percent of the population has an INFJ Personality Type, making it the most rare of all the types.
INFJs place great importance on havings things orderly and systematic in their outer world. They put a lot of energy into identifying the best system for getting things done, and constantly define and re-define the priorities in their lives. On the other hand, INFJs operate within themselves on an intuitive basis which is entirely spontaneous. They know things intuitively, without being able to pinpoint why, and without detailed knowledge of the subject at hand. They are usually right, and they usually know it. Consequently, INFJs put a tremendous amount of faith into their instincts and intuitions. This is something of a conflict between the inner and outer worlds, and may result in the INFJ not being as organized as other Judging types tend to be. Or we may see some signs of disarray in an otherwise orderly tendency, such as a consistently messy desk.
INFJs have uncanny insight into people and situations. They get "feelings" about things and intuitively understand them. As an extreme example, some INFJs report experiences of a psychic nature, such as getting strong feelings about there being a problem with a loved one, and discovering later that they were in a car accident. This is the sort of thing that other types may scorn and scoff at, and the INFJ themself does not really understand their intuition at a level which can be verbalized. Consequently, most INFJs are protective of their inner selves, sharing only what they choose to share when they choose to share it. They are deep, complex individuals, who are quite private and typically difficult to understand. INFJs hold back part of themselves, and can be secretive.
But the INFJ is as genuinely warm as they are complex. INFJs hold a special place in the heart of people who they are close to, who are able to see their special gifts and depth of caring. INFJs are concerned for people's feelings, and try to be gentle to avoid hurting anyone. They are very sensitive to conflict, and cannot tolerate it very well. Situations which are charged with conflict may drive the normally peaceful INFJ into a state of agitation or charged anger. They may tend to internalize conflict into their bodies, and experience health problems when under a lot of stress.
Because the INFJ has such strong intuitive capabilities, they trust their own instincts above all else. This may result in an INFJ stubborness and tendency to ignore other people's opinions. They believe that they're right. On the other hand, INFJ is a perfectionist who doubts that they are living up to their full potential. INFJs are rarely at complete peace with themselves - there's always something else they should be doing to improve themselves and the world around them. They believe in constant growth, and don't often take time to revel in their accomplishments. They have strong value systems, and need to live their lives in accordance with what they feel is right. In deference to the Feeling aspect of their personalities, INFJs are in some ways gentle and easy going. Conversely, they have very high expectations of themselves, and frequently of their families. They don't believe in compromising their ideals.
INFJ is a natural nurturer; patient, devoted and protective. They make loving parents and usually have strong bonds with their offspring. They have high expectations of their children, and push them to be the best that they can be. This can sometimes manifest itself in the INFJ being hard-nosed and stubborn. But generally, children of an INFJ get devoted and sincere parental guidance, combined with deep caring.
In the workplace, the INFJ usually shows up in areas where they can be creative and somewhat independent. They have a natural affinity for art, and many excel in the sciences, where they make use of their intuition. INFJs can also be found in service-oriented professions. They are not good at dealing with minutia or very detailed tasks. The INFJ will either avoid such things, or else go to the other extreme and become enveloped in the details to the extent that they can no longer see the big picture. An INFJ who has gone the route of becoming meticulous about details may be highly critical of other individuals who are not.
The INFJ individual is gifted in ways that other types are not. Life is not necessarily easy for the INFJ, but they are capable of great depth of feeling and personal achievement.
http://www.personalitypage.com/INFJ.html

This personality type...I hate to say it pretty much describes me, I do love creative independent task,but lately I've been scared to be alone with my thoughts... and myself. I feel like sometimes I lose control of my thoughts and start to scare myself. The alone time that I used to enjoy now seems like torture to me because I find it scary. I feel that in my mind, my thoughts have a mind of their own and I'm not in control of them. This is the way I've been feeling since summer school after I came back from Japan. I feel that even though I'm uncomfortable with it, talking and speaking helps me cope with my uncontrollable thoughts because at least when I speak, these thoughts go through a filter and I have some control over them... I felt this way 5 years ago with my parents divorce and these feelings have resurfaced. It's subsiding a little and I do find some comfort in being alone but it's not the same. I guess I have to let time be the healer and ease my suffering.

Three Years!!

Hi all,

  So it's been three years now since I've cut my hair and gone natural. It's been a crazy ride but I'm glad I stuck to it. My face and body and never felt healthier..plus my hair has grown out so much, sometimes it even astonishes me. This journey isn't over for me yet because as my dad has, keeping up with yourself and taking care of yourself is a life long endeavour. I just want to take the time now though to reflect back on my journey and see how far I've actually come. If you've been reading my post you can see pictures of me when I first cut my hair back in 2009. Well here are some pictures today of how it's grown. Now that my hair is getting longer, I do worry about my ends because I don't

"dust" or trim my ends like over women do that I've seen on videos but since I am graduating on Saturday! YAY! lol I'm thinking about straightening my hair (don't worry professionally, I don't trust myself with heat yet) for the occasion and I'm just really curious to see how long my hair actually is. I guess then, I'll get my ends trimmed and see how I can keep my ends nice and neat. Throughout this journey, I want to thank a lot of people that has guided me throughout this experience. First I want to thank all the ladies on Youtube for creating such great informative videos that girls like me can follow and look up to. Finally I want to thank my hair dresser Meeka! She's an amazing hair stylist that I would recommend to anyone. She's given me lots of advice about my hair and how I should treat it to let it grow and I'm really indebted to her for all her advice! Anyway, I'm still not at my goal length yet which is a little  bra strap length going down my back but I know that I'll reach it...maybe in year 4 or 5 of my journey. After I reach that goal, I think I might start cutting it if if gets longer because, if you have hair like me, you know how much of a hassle it can be with two-strand twist once you've washed it. It literally takes me hours to re-twist because it's so long. but, after I reach my goal length I intend to just maintain that length. Anyway, besides hair talk, I just want to say Happy Mother's Day to my mom and to all the mom's out there that work hard for their babies! We really appreciate it, even if we don't show it all the time. So please keep doing what your doing and always know you are loved!!! Thanks moms! I also want to take the time to congratulate all the college graduates of 2012!! As I said earlier, I'm graduating on Saturday (with a shit load of debt!) but yeah, it's a pretty big accomplishment and I'm proud of myself! I'm graduating with a Japanese BA degree and I'm looking forward to using my language abilities in my future jobs so I couldn't ask for anything more (except maybe a more fair way of charging kids for school so that don't end up with a mountain of debt even before they have a job to pay it off...but hey, you can't get everything huh..)