Ear Piercing

 

 So, I got a second hole in my ear a few days ago with my mom and sister mama. At first I was really scared so I volunteered to go first because I didn't want to watch the agony of everyone else and then have the anxiety of waiting for it to be my turn. But in the end it was like a little pinch to the ear and it didn't hurt so bad. Even though my mom said hers hurt a little bit because the stone she picked out was way bigger than mine. Then my sister mama, sometimes I feel like this girl is insensitive to pain. When she got hers done, she didn't flinch or move not one muscle! I couldn't believe it, but even  since she was a she

had a high tolerance for pain so I guess I shouldn't be so surprised. But my other sister Nkenge, she was kind of jealous because we all got them and excluded her, but she comes home from school for soring break the same time I leave so I guess my mom will take her to get it then if she wants it. I'm pretty happy with my piercing though. I kind of feel a little liberated actually. I even found a pair of butterfly earrings that weren't that expensive. My sister both think they look childish but even if they do I can't help what I like. So yeah, in the picture the top one is the new hole and the one with the butterfly is the old hole. I actually got my first piercing done when I was a baby and too young to remember so that why I was so scared because I didn't even remember the pain and if it was going to hurt or not. But in the end it was ok! I even painted my nails this "fruity patutitty" color (that's what it said on the bottle lol

So....yeah =0

Hello everyone =)

Well it's spring break and I'm almost done with my college undergraduate study...and have no idea what I'm going to be doing after graduation. However, a lot has happened to me since I last updated so I thought I should share lol

First, I got a scholarship from the Mitsubishi company, so I'm 5000 dollars richer...except I have so many student loans it really doesn't matter lol but this money can help me get off my feet and sustain me for a little bit until I get settled and can start paying some of my loans off

Then, I started dating this guy =) he's really nice, kind if dorky but he's cute so it's ok lol we've been going out for around 1~2 months now and I really enjoy hanging out with him =) even though he's a year younger than me ..and sometimes I can really feel the age difference because he acts just like my sister. Not concerned about his future, needs he's parents to give him incentive to think about his future and get stuff done....and to make it worst he used to use weed and was even selling it when I started seeing him. But I told him if he didn't stop we were over so he's being a good boy about that. I don't know, sometimes I just feel like 1990 kids are slackers lol or maybe it's just the 1990 kids I know. But yeah, I'm going out with him =) and he makes me happy so I guess that's all that matters. In time, if we're still together I guess we'll have to meet each others parents...and that should be interesting.

I still have a little bit of anxiety, but it's not as bad as it was in the summer, and I'm beginning to stop thinking that I have every disease in the world and acting like a hypochondriac....that might be thanks to the guy I'm seeing, he relaxes me sometimes and I feel like I can calm down a little. Not to say that it's entirely gone, just saying that it's getting better. Although, when I think about it, I feel like I was suppose to go through this turmoil in order to meet Will. Now that I think about it, I really do think that because without me going crazy and freaking out during the summer I would have never went to my therapist, I would have never went on that online dating site, I would have never tried to meet new people and I would have never met Will. So in some ways I guess I'm thankful if that makes any sense. I just hope I get fully recovered so I can take something good away from this whole experience.

During spring break I'm going with my mom and mama to get a second ear piercing. I'm kind of excited but then I'm kind of scared because I hate needles but I've been thinking about getting a second ear piercing for awhile now and from my mom's crazy mid life crisis part II phase, I've decided to try and get it done with her lol and now mama's decided to do it too so it's like a whole family thing. After I get it done, I want to get some butterfly studs...like the one's I lost after practicing in the marching band when I was in high school (that's part of the reason why I quit lol because I don't like physical labor and I lost my favorite pair of earrings doing this labor I wasn't even motivated to do) but yeah, hopefully that goes well

That's pretty much everything for now, all the big things anyway....so I guess I'll end here for now